Soldiers in Love

T'was the night when little Ana hath not been in bed
For she scorned and be perversed and say thee nay
"A little game would hath not been wounded by me"

I talked old English a lot lately.
Blame it on the movie "Private Romeo".

For those who does enjoy Broadway musicals,
Shakespearean stories with old English,
The young handsome noblemen of Verona,
Well,..
I present to thee a gallant beautiful touching story of young Romeo and Juliet,
with a little bit of gay twist.

Aha!
Whenever we speak of "gay-themed movie",
the cliches of "bullying" and "teen-suicides" cannot be parted from it.
But in "Private Romeo",
All that matters is LOVE.

My view on love is that,
YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH PEOPLE.
NOT GENDER.
Unless you're a Muslim.

I just wish,
so badly that our young lovers,
Romeo a.k.a cadet Sam Singleton and his lovely lovely Juliet a.k.a cadet Glenn Mangan
are truly lovers.
They had this chemistry,
non-awkwardness onscreen,
where the kisses are just natural,
and the way they bring out the words of Shakespeare (literally,they use OLD ENGLISH),
and how they are comfortable with each other.
They even are ODDLY close with each other OFF-SCREEN!
In the movie,
Instead of Verona,
you get the gym, mess hall, and dorm rooms of a military campus.
Instead of class wars and family feuds,
young plebes worry about demerits and falling in love.
And unlike the real play,
We have Tybalt, Mercutio, and our star-crossed lovers LIVE in the end.

Yes,
I am aware that Matt Doyle (Juliet) is openly gay,
and I HOPEFULLY earnestly from the bottom of my gut and heart wishes that Seth Numrich(Romeo) is gay too.
Because you don't get frisky with your own species.
And they look GOOD,
LIKE FRIGGIN' GOOD TOGETHER TOO~!!!
Like DARREN CRISS and CHRIS COLFER~!!!

As they say,
Darren and Chris are lovers.
Except Darren is straight.
*sigh*

I really REALLY thought they'd make a good couple.

Here's to my love.

from left: Juliet (Glenn), Romeo (Sam)

my favourite part where young banished Romeo from Verona for injuring Tybalt, hurriedly ran to Capel's Monument to find his true love, Juliet, lying breathlessly in the tomb.

downloading movies for the end of year 2012:
Make The Yuletide Gay
eCupid
Private Romeo
Breakfast With Scot
any horror English movies I can lay my hands to
FrankenWeenie (for Mukhlis)
Hotel Transylvania (also for Mukhlis)

and I kinda miss the soap opera Queer as Folks,
but I'm too lazy to download all 5 seasons,
So I'm just gonna buy the dvds,..

ALL HAIL JUSTIN AND BRIAN!
Seriously I love when Micheal's mom call Justin "Sunshine".
He's just so cute.

New movies next year:
STILL SEARCHING.

yep,
this is pretty much my routine for 2 months.
I have no life.
*sigh*

Where?

I don't know where I belong.
So the early conclusion of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs where humans need the sense of belongingness:
I don't have it.

Lately,
home doesn't feel like home anymore.
It feels like "a free hotel with people you know and free food".
And hostel feels like,...
HOSTEL.

And I'm standing right between two spots,
My feet can't move,
And I'm standing on the grey spot between black and white.
Between hostel and home.
Between here and there.
But my guts telling me I don't belong to both.

So where do I belong?
I'm lost.

cry, cry little child,

all the places and people you know has died,

they say if wishes were horses beggar would ride,

care to hop in my precious little child?

Attachment

yeay, exam for semester 2 has finally ended.

we'll get to the result next year.

my point of today's babble is;

ATTACHMENT IS BAD.

I mean,

no people on this Earth is not attached to NOTHING.

It's whether you're attached to religion,

family,

friends,

lovers,

yourselves,

animals,

environment,

blah blah blah and the list goes on.

And whenever people are attached to something,

It's harder to let go.

You don't want to change.

You don't want to leave them.

You want the time to stop.

That's the thing I've been thinking the time we sent Dila to bus station tonight.

I've grown attached to them.

To my bestfriends here.

The question is,

I'm already feeling down and sad and lonely and all the negative emotions just welled up,

Because of the feeling that I won't be able to see them for 2 months.

But what happens when we're in our 8th semester,

And we're going to say goodbye for more than just 2 months?

Yes.

That hit the spot.

I've never had much friends.

And when you meet your other halves,

It's harder to let go,

To say goodbyes.

In friendship there are not just rainbows and pot of golds,

There will be floods and hurricanes and times when we just want to punch them right in the face,

But they know your bad side,

Your good side,

Your dirty side,

Literally all of your sides,

The smallest little things,

And accept you for it.

The nearest relationship to a family.

The current moment where we appreciate everything is important,

But to think we're going separate ways after 3 years,

It made me nauseous. 

To think I may never find people like them,

Hell they're irreplaceable.

It would just kill me.

Then again,

If you never move forward,

You won't know what the path might lead you on.

Like if I rejected the IPG thing when I was in KMPh,

I would still be "the forever alone dude in class 5H27" and never met these crazy people who I call "the ones that bring out the crazies in me".

Yeah it's the end of the semester and I kinda get a little bit emo,

And it's not like it's the end of the world.

But without them,

I would never even know the true meaning of having "second family".

You get a lazy-always-on-the-phone one,

the I-am-always-emo-online-but-crazy-when-I-get-outside one,

the laughing-spree-whenever-I-watch-RunningMan one,

the I-always-wear-feminine-stuffs-but-I-am-not-feminine-much one,

and me.

The normal one.

Okay,

Not so normal.pfft.

So that's just it.

Changes in lives bring different meaning to everyone.

Some likes it, 

And some doesn't.

But it's still going to happen.

So appreciate the moment.

After our last separation in 3 more years,

I want to be able to meet them again,

With children in hands,

Husbands beside (or behind our backs),

And we're talking non-endlessly about how our lives in IPG KDRI sucks,

But with each one of us there,

Life was endurable.

I want to be able to tell my children one day,

That I found true friends,

When I came to a place where they make "TEACHERS".

Dila: guys, it's a duck!

Jai: ducks can't fly.

Saba: that's an airplane, morons.

Said: i farted, if anyone noticed.

Me: can we stop looking at the sky and eat?i'm hungry.