I want to keep you breathing.

Not doing a very good job on that one.

Aah~ exams. Always bring out the best in me. Cheating methods roaming inside my brain, but never actually HAD a gut to do it.

Continuation: Velvet and Amir's Mini Novella

crazy stalker talking

after disconnected, the guy stick with the chatrooms

after 30 mins, they met again -.- this time its the girl who recognize him.well this time they talked a lot too about things,about nasi lemak which she should be prepare by now

suddenly she told him that shes married

hahahaha

well its a lie,about the marriage,but the lad told her that if shes married then she shouldnt be chatting here.then the girl asked him, if shes not married yet, the should we meet?

*then

the guy asked its incognito here

well we shouldnt talk about jodoh etc randomly since everything is fake

then the girl asked him about the pref about his future wife

the guy told her about it

and she asked again if the wife has lots of fan, need to take care of her mom during weekends etc~

the guy answered her.she asked the guy about his future planning,the guy told her that hes not going to marry until almost 30.the girl told him that shes not going to marry too until she got stable career.well she told hem that shes like him

maybe ts jodoh,remember my name.maybe we'll meet again.gtg.masak nasi lemak

bye

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the end

me: other version: the guy was shocked this girl sure is something but maybe she's just being polite he still couldn't figure out whether she's a sociopath or plain naïve,and that was intriguing

he held his breath,praying that he won't meet another crazed people trying to woo him in every weird way possible

samb: one fine day the guy just came back from his classes tired from the lectures he had for the day and tried to get online but then the girl he chatted a few days ago recognized him

"hey honey,can i meet you?"she chatted bubbly

"OHMAIGOD,THIS IS THE WAY I DIE" the guy shouted and he tried to pull off the plug but to no avail the computer seems to have mind on its own and Sadako creeps out from the screen as the guy tried to hit the ghost with all his might

say Watson,our perpetrator here is very undeniably fake,right? what is her intention trying to woo our guy into tricking him that he's her destined one?

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We Librans give very good advises.
But I'm pretty much fucked-up myself.
It's like,
"Hey, to be skinny you must restrain yourself from eating too much"-while shoving a whole pizza, the neighbor's car, and a half country into my mouth.

Being abandoned is awful...
But saying
"Don't leave me"
is even worse.

After all these times,
I've lost hope in love,
And of a future.

Being lonely is scary,
But at least there is no one to break your heart.

THEY CALL IT "HEARTBREAK" FOR A REASON.YOU KNOW,TO FUCKING MOVE ON?

Drogo and Daenerys Targaryen

The sole reason why I watch Games of Thrones is because of this:

"Moon of my life"- Drogo

"My sun and stars" - Daenerys

Of course, she was sold in a marriage to a barbaric warlord, of whom, she never knew and loved. But then, you learn to love the person you married, and it became stronger each day.Well, until she lost both her husband and stillborn son.

I Love You Phillip Morris

A true story. Really happened.

the real Steven Russell(up) and Phillip Morris(down)

casts: Jim Carrey and Ewan McGregor

The good side is unlike "A Single Man" and other cliche gay-themed movies, I heart this one. And I will never be able to look at Ewan McGregor the same way ever again. Oh, Rodrigo Santoro (What To Expect When You're Expecting) also plays Jim Carrey's love in this movie. A MUST WATCH!

THE INTERVIEW:

While doing the promotional rounds for their new film I Love You Phillip Morris, it became clear that stars Jim Carrey and Ewan McGregor truly saw the film as a labor of love and not just another studio movie. For one thing, it was shot on a smaller budget without the luxuries they’re both accustomed to and even better, both actors are still promoting the movie almost two years since its Sundance premiere.

The politics behind the film’s delay are another story but for now let’s focus on the film. To be blunt, it’s surprisingly good and a welcome departure from the usual Jim Carrey vehicles we’re used to. The film is of course a comedy but not in the way you’d expect. Carrey stars as Christian family man Steven Russell, who after years of living in the closet decides to fully come out and embrace a new gay lifestyle. Through a series of events we see him cheat, steal and fall in love in prison with another gay inmate (Ewan McGregor).

All of this is played for laughs and is based on a true story. Without going into major spoilers I can say that the film was a huge hit at the Sundance and Cannes film festivals and is finally rolling out into more theatres this week. The following is my conversation with Jim Carrey and Ewan McGregor to promote the film.

What kinds of things are you doing for the gay community?

Jim Carrey: What I’m doing for the gay community is loving and tolerating. Accepting everyone on equal terms.

How was the experience of making out with Ewan McGregor?

Carrey: A dream come true. I mean look at the guy.

Did you have any reservations playing a gay character?

Ewan McGregor: It’s the same as playing any other kind of man. The story is about being in love, being gay has nothing to do with it. Playing the character was never weird, or awkward, or unpleasant.
Carrey: But it was hard to let go of it.
Ewan, did you meet Phillip Morris before starting the movie?

McGregor: I met Phillip Morris on the way to start the shoot. I spent about a day-and-a-half with him. It’s fascinating. If you want to do a good impersonation of someone, just follow them around for a day-and-a-half.

Carrey: I didn’t get a chance to meet my character. I wasn’t allowed to go up to the prison and I don’t think they were nuts about us doing this movie in Texas. I got some recordings through and was able to speak to him that way. It was very fascinating to hear from somebody who was fascinated by someone else making a movie about him. Especially because he would never get to see it but Phillip would. It was kind of sad and poignant. You could tell that it was thrilling for him that someone was going to make his life story and he might never get to see it.
Is there a chance he could get out of jail?

Carrey: They’re pretty serious about keeping him behind bars. He embarrassed a lot of people.
The real Phillip Morris makes a cameo in the movie, right?

Carrey: Yeah. We couldn’t stop him from looking into the camera lens. He ruined take after take after take. It was quite hilarious, I don’t know how we got around that.
Jim, is it true that you sent the script to Ewan immediately after signing on to the movie?

Carrey: Yes but I don’t have any casting couch stories.
McGregor: He humiliated me.
Do you have a favorite scene from the film?

Carrey: I honestly don’t have a favorite scene. It’s a wonderful thing to go into work everyday and do this kind of work. To do it with great people and great material is a blessing so it’s like asking me which baby do you like best. On a movie like this you feel pretty lucky.


I Love You Phillip Morris is now playing in American limited theatres nationwide.

after all of this ends, please let me sleep forever.

Patience versus Responsibility

It's a matter of being responsible.
Sure,
I can bail whenever I want to.
Simply because I can.
Simply because I have reasons.
Simply because I have somewhere to stay.

But I didn't.

Because I know of my responsibilities.
Being a substitute of Mom,
Of Dad,
Of Me.
Though I don't need to,
But the sense of responsibility beats the selfishness within me.

I tried to be patience.
I needed to be strong.
For them.
For Mom and Dad.

But I can't do this on my own.
I didn't simply tried.

She's tired,
I know.

And the source of our biggest problem is just one person,
How can ONE HOT-BLOODED TEENAGER CAN GIVE SO MUCH TROUBLES???

I am on the edge.
And I tried to keep not only mine,
But her sanity as well.
Because I know how important SPM is.
I went through it.

And I know how disappointed she is with him.
I am too.
I don't know what to do.
Who to turn to.
Only God Almighty hears my small voice,
And Mom and Dad keep telling reasons.
But they didn't know what happened here.
We tried to fend off the real stories,
So they can perform Hajj without worries.

I have to be strong,
But right now blasphemous feelings keep riling in.

"The Stalking Jodoh:Unknown Mystery Behind The Internet" - a mini novella by Amir and Velvet

a time when I needed him the most, and he needs me the most, we complete each other.

Amir: well her name is sarrah natasha binti gospello .....

xingat lepas gospello tu

age =18/19

studying at kolej mara banting

currrently taking IB

ex SBP seri puteri cyberjaya

lives in kl

mixed portugese, chinese, malay

know 5 lang

malay, chinese, korean, germany, eng

even not fluent all

father already gone

kanser usus

mom 58?

sakit tua

sis currrently studying meds in egypt

well they only 3

living with a maid

and a driver which only come on weekdays

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me: a young lad who is currently studying engineering in a prestigious university meets a stalker who happens to be a very creepy one online.

thats a good start.

Amir: yes

its mysterious that he met the same 'girl' for that morning'

even after disconnected for few times -.-

me: and then,one day the girl who fell in love at first connection during their chat

says to the guy, "YOU'RE MY DESTINED ONE,OH DEAR PRINCE CHARMING!"

the startled guy was speechless..taken aback from what the girl said and ran away.

Amir: nah thats wrong -.-

that girl said that it might our jodoh you know -.- and the man said that its impossible and lectured her for quite a time,making her disconnect the chat angrily -.-maybe

thats the story of their first meeting

me: "young girl,you should be studying for your future,not mingling around with some stranger online!"he said. and she replied, ""im sure we are connected somehow.i will see thee again in my dreams" the guy was white-faced,scared beyond reasoning

Amir: oi the end of their first meeeting

me: "man,this girl is a lunatic," he thought.

Amir: the first meeting is maybe around 5am of 6 Oct then the lad stood up for some bath and went out for breakfast somehow by 8 am the lad begins to feel bored and started to get on the chat room again

-.-

once again they met

me: the girl seems to be online whenever he onlines

"hmm,probably just a coincidence,"he thought but the story took a few sharp turns and the girl starts chatting with him again!

jeng jeng jeng

"oh mai,it's you again" the girl said. the guy was dumbfounded

"the heck??" he thought and quickly turned offline

Amir: nah the guy who started to recognize her first -.-

and once again they talked about tons of things

me: okay. the guy is crazy. hahahha

Amir: about how they started their morning -.- about life as student, about foods -.-after that guy asking about whos gonna send her to kmb by evening -.- she told its gonna be her mom since her father already passed away from cancer usus and she talked about she always went home during weekends cooks for her mom -.- and by the morning shes going to cook nasi lemak

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the end of their 2nd meeting

me: the guy felt sorry for the girl though he felt awkwardly weird "why was this girl spilled every single details of her story to me,an unknown stranger?"he mused to himself

but he still hasn't any weird feelings toward the poor little girl

until their 3rd meeting online

this is where the story gets weirder

 “WATSON,GET ME MY PIPE!”says Sherlock

amir: well because its incognito so we can talk a lot with honesty 

the arc of the 3rd meeting...................

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TO BE CONTINUED......