I've been doing nothing but to start anew since holiday.
By rounding up.
Literally.
Abah said I look exactly like a golf ball.
And that's okay because it's the holiday and it gives me free passage to eat my feelings out.
And gain pounds.

But still,
It wasn't enough.
For I am still holding the bitterness of my old one.
This crazy sounds in my head keeps telling me every single day,
"He's the reason you won't be able to fall in love again"
And driving me to the edge,
Eating, eating, eating....

So help me for I can never slap myself hard enough to get back on the ground.