I swear all I wanted for my birthday next year is a child.
Preferably mine.
Mine alone.
And no husband.
Can we skip to the part where technology can accomplish those kind of births like amoeba or starfish?
Because men.
MEN ARE ANNOYING SPECIES THAT SHOULD BE PUT OFF FROM THIS EARTH.

I don't know why I'm being passive aggressive.
Must be some kind of bipolar disorder.

Tribute To You, Dear Brother.

This guy loves me! And I come to find out that I love him too.

WTF, man?? You chose NOW to steal your future brother-in-law that you, Mom and KC schemed??

Not that kind of love, imbecile. There are many types of  love in this world. And ours exceed the love of lovers(?). I don't know what type is it yet, but there are some hazy half-older-brother-half-pseudo-parental-figure-light aura that he always muster up to me. I'll vote for parent.

So, this person.

He worries like a frickin' MOTHER when he knew I was coming to Selangor by my own (I thought I heard him shriek over the phone, he still insisted it was a "manly shriek"), always trying to bring me around like a Goddamn tour-guide and fret over everything when I wasn't with him when we were out. So, yeah, I'll chalk him up over from an overly-protective brother-figure to my second DAD (or Mom, depends on how he behave.) The last day was hectic, and I wanted to spend as much time as I want with him, consider our holidays almost never collide with each other, so even though in Kelantan, it's hard to see him. And I still want him for my brother-in-law. Screw his opinion.

This person, 

Who I know my whole life,

And still have the image of that 6 year old boy I first met, years ago.

I wonder one day,

When we meet each other in our wedding day,

Will I ever have the gut to say goodbye and hand him over to a girl who loves him more than I did?

But if HE goes to my future wedding,

I have those lists where he will

a) sing 

b) make toast

c) be my husband's best man.

Oh yeah, Amir bin Ibrahim. You're stuck with me forever~!! Well, until you found your other half.

I love you too, bro.

I'll Tell You This.

Live.
Live and be happy.

I've always find ways to look past my shoulder.
Trying to find grounds.
To convince myself if I'm depressed, broken..
Lost...
Somehow you'll see my agony and feel it too.
I want you to feel worse than what I've been through.
That way,
I can retaliate what you gave.
The feelings of a brokenhearted.

But now I realized.
I was making a complete fool out of myself.
So,
There's nothing else to say,
Rather than wanting you to live,
Live and be happy.
Be healthy.
So you can see I'm happier without you.
Maybe not now,
But definitely someday.

Newest.

THIS IS NOT SANE.OR EVEN NORMAL.BUT WHENEVER DID I EVER COME CLOSE TO ANY OF THAT? BLERGH

STILES STILINSKI AND DEREK HALE. WHY DO YOU BOTH HAVE TO INVADE MY WARMLY SMALL COCOON OF STONY AND BE MY LATEST OBSESSION??WHY??WHY??? BTDUBS, I TOTALLY SHIP DYLAN O'BRIEN AND TYLER HOECHLIN. I SWEAR I WILL GO TO THE BLACK MAGIC SOCIETY AND CURSES THEM TO LOVE EACH OTHER FOREVER.ETERNALLY.TO INFINITY AND BEYOND.JUST BECAUSE I'M A LUNATIC. 

Don't worry about not having a boyfriend at your age. Didn't ALLAH SWT promised "I saved this one for the best?"

Yeah, or maybe he was already dead.

Why do you need to be so negative?

It's one of my awesome traits.

Well, even if he's dead, God forbids, then you'll find him in Jannah.

Gah, just kill me now.

Whoa.

Ahe-hem.
Being obsessed with slash-pairing and homosexuality aren't healthy.
You think so?
And starting to obsess with the concept of Mpreg is worse.
Yeah, keep telling yourself that.
So, should I start a fic about us?
Family, friends.
It won't last a week before you go back to the previous unhealthy obsession.
Huh. Very helpful.

Oh,hey, look. I'm still alive. And haven't being admitted to the mental institution. 'Tis a miracle!
Not yet, anyway.