I don't hate people who I feel important to me.
I may sulk,
I may get mad,
But I never hate.
That was not what my parents and Amir taught me.

But when I sulk,
I have my reasons.
It's never because of a whim or hormones going crazy.
There's always a reason.

And maybe it's a hint,
For me to revert to whom I really was.
Before I came here.
That lone wolf.
Who doesn't need anyone to survive.

Maybe that's what I really need.
Maybe it's my destiny to not being able to live in community.
I should just live in a forest alongside the animals.
They won't even care even if I sulk.

Because they too,
exclude me from everything.
So I need to exclude everything also in my life.