Done.

Probably he doesn't understand.
Probably he doesn't WANT to understand.
But most likely....he doesn't even care anymore.
I was the only idiot here.
The biggest idiot.
Hoping, crying, regretting,..
This I'm sure will only lead to another frustration.
But I still haven't get over him.

What should I do?

I'm done being the only one holding on to something that doesn't exist anymore.
I used to say,
"I want him, but I want him to want me".

And another heartbreak.

Now I only want an escapade,
I'm done waiting.
I need a new life.

And I need to start accepting that my future most likely won't involve him.