The only way to ease out the sadness.
How it felt,
I understand it all.
And I was kind of envious.
I ask myself a thousand times,
What the verdict would be,
If I can turn around the time.
The answer was simple,
Idiotic, self-destroying, aggravating,
But simple.
I was an idiot.
Still am.
But this idiot,
Never look at other people anymore.
Because of that simple answer.
How can the same mouth whispered lovely words,
Soothing words,
Heart-melting words,
Can come from a cold heart?
As if we never existed.
As if I never existed.
It was so easy to think,
To get back what you earned by being patient,
But all you wanted was to forget everything?
Why can't I forget THIS?
But everything else was a blur.
Even my high school memories.
"It takes time to heal, to learn to start over"
he said.
They said.
But I know,
I'm stuck.
Sometimes it felt like I was moving on.
But then I realized I was in the same exact spot.
I don't know how much can I take.
The tears.
The loneliness.
The bitterness.
This is too cruel,
even for me.
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