Up until now
There has no good thing that ever came upon me
I wanted to be optimistic
I wanted to think that there is a rainbow at the end of the heavy,storming rain.

But I am not an optimist.
Nor am I a happy person.
He always said he is scared of my future because of my personality.

But what can I do?
Bitterness held me up as captive for so long
 I am scared that when happiness dwell upon
It goes away as fast as it comes.

Please be gentle, dear fate.