Hearts

You know the worst part of getting your heart broken?
The inability to fall in love again.
You thought time will help you being on track again,
How wrong are you,
When you realize nothing will ever be the same.

You're not the person you used to be.

Your feelings are numb,
Your head is a mess,
And your heart is empty,
Because you gave everything away,
Until there is nothing left for you.

You lost hope in waiting,
You lost hope in practically everything,
And you just wants it all to end,
Because nothing matters anyway.

Sometimes you lie to yourself,
Just to be reminded by your subconscious,
That you are pathetically being an idiot,
And have no qualms whatsoever showing it to your dearest ones.

Even if he apologizes,
He could not return you to who you really were,
And you don't know whether to be grateful or to loathe him all your might,
Because he showed you the true harsh reality of life,
Or the part where he took away the little innocence you had,
And crushed it beneath his feet,
Like an insignificant vermin.

You speak with brilliant words on keyboard,
But when with your lips,
All you can do is grunt and growl,
Like an injured puppy,
You know you're wounded,
But you refused help.

There are people who tries to replace him in your heart,
But you sealed it away,
You became wary of their presence,
You want to block everything out,
Because you're afraid of what could have repeated,
Of their expectations,
Of opening yourself up to another people,
Of being with someone again,
When you've been alone for so long.

He and I are not friends nor enemies. We are just strangers with memories.