Lifeless Doll

Why is it so hard to be honest?
Why is it so hard to be who you really are?
Is it because you're afraid of what people might judge you?
Is it because you're afraid they will talk behind your back?

Then don't be a part of society.
Society is ugly.

Though it is necessary to be hypocrite in order to survive.
But in front of people who really care,
Do not be hesitate to show who you are inside.
If they are the ones,
They will stay.
If not,
You will learn who are the ones you can call a family, friend.

The little girl learned that the hard way.
Because she was inexperienced,
Naive.
And she never knew how to keep it low.
Whether it's too extreme, or under-extreme.
Or both.
But she knew,
People who care are those who realized her actions and feelings.
Or maybe she was just too easy to read.
But still,
She wanted to believe.

She may be an airhead,
But she is not a total stupid.
She knew she should have given up,
And being obstinate is just a total waste of time, energy, tears.
But at the same time,
It reminds her that those memories kept her strong enough,
From being led to astray.
At times she just wanted to erase everything in her mind,
In her heart,
In her life.

Start over.
A newborn.
But when you have no experience,
You as well be a lifeless doll.
Breathing means nothing.
Living is just as the same as being dead.