I've done caring.
I've done believing.
I've done loving.

But I can't stop feeling hurt.
My heart,
It feels like someone blows an air balloon inside my lungs,
It compress my heart,
I can't breathe,
My chest feels tight.

Somehow,
I feel like I'm losing a friend.
It's because I was selfish.
It's because I was afraid.

Why can't they understand?
Why can't I be frivolous?
Why?
Why?
Why?